Middle child syndrome

Being the middle child sucks! I myself have gotten the privledge?...to be stuck between two other sisters. My older sister happens to be three years older then me while my younger sister isnt even one year younger, a better way to understand it is that me and my little sister are the same age for 4 days:( I honestly dont know how multiples do it.

Being stuck in the middle with a little sister so close in age to me I find I get stuck on the outside when it comes to family matters. My older sister was always mommys little girl, my little sister was daddys little girl no matter where we went she had to be holding daddys hand, by daddys side or she would throw a temper. So where do I get sat in the midst of it all? Well I made myself invisible, I was off in my own mind making a fake world that I could escape to whenever I needed.

The biggest downfall I found that came with my own little world, was the fact I began to trust every new person that came into my life. Or the fact that I have absolutely no relationship with anyone in my family other then the minimal I managed to collect with my father. Me and my sisters literally don't talk about anything, we are all to the point we're all in different schools. My mother and I fight with eachother at leat once a day if not more. My father... well how much can I tell my father about whats going on in my life becoming a woman? Not enough to make him my motherly figure.

This has been like this for the longest I can remember soo many times I've wished for it to change, but I have to keep telling myself to work on it as the days progress I have to be willing to change it. It wont change on its own. So as I work on changing my relationships with y family members I will do my best to keep everyone updated. Thats if there is someone who actually reads my blogs, but if there is thanks for reading and thanks for keeping up with me!!